My Tainted World

Becks for H&M : The New Classics in Men's Underwear

2012-02-10T15:48:00.004+08:00

This first collection presents the nine key products in their most basic form to highlight the quality of the design. There are four underpant styles – briefs, trunks, boxer briefs and woven boxers; three tops – David’s perfect T-shirt, vest and Henley; and then two bodywear styles – pyjama bottoms, and also long johns, the secret favourite undergarment of many men in the colder months.

Cotton is used throughout, with the right elastane in the briefs, trunks, T-shirt and vest to still have a soft feel. Cotton waffle is used in the Henley and long-john, and a special finish on the 100% cotton pyjamas to ensure they retain their shape. And that's not all. This collection is a first in a long- term partnership with H&M, which will seasonally develop new styles, new fabrics and new patterns which will all follow the quality-focused blueprint of David’s new classics.

Learn more here (:

<3

2012-02-09T13:29:00.004+08:00

Back at B's crib after lunch while waiting for the scaffoldings to be up in the shop. 1x shiok only. Now what's missing is a cuppa bbt. 奶禄 0% 加珍珠 preferred.

Pose & Post

2012-02-05T13:58:00.005+08:00

As we step into the month of February, there's definitely traces of love in the air with Valentine’s Day just round the corner ! Valentine's day is the day to express your love for your family and friends and what's sweeter than heading off for a mini getaway with your significant other ?

Get lovestruck with a Krabi trip for 2 worth 5000 DOLLARS ! Simply grab your partner and pose for an affectionate photo now !! You also stand a chance to win a sky dining voucher worth $350 ! Learn more here (:

I've posted mine, how about you ? Oh btw, please vote for us here (:

One drop makes all the difference

2012-02-04T20:42:00.010+08:00

If you've left me a question/comment at my formspring, do check it out cause i've answered all pending questions in my inbox ♥♥

Anyway, if you've been following me on my twitter, you would know that i've previously gotten a friend of mine to purchase this highly raved and recommended whitening soap from the Philippines and lately, i've finally got down to using this soap. It's called the kojic acid soap and in case you're wondering, the brand i'm using is Kojie San. There's actually quite a few brands of kojic acid soaps available in the market but i've done some research and it seems like Kojie San is one of the more effective ones and i'm totally crossing my fingers and toes that it works on me so i can be 白白的白雪公主 (:

Speaking about skin, achieve instant smoother and softer skin with Loreal Youth Code Boosting Essence. Regain radiance, youthfulness & suppleness in your skin in JUST ONE MONTH ! Turn back the hands of time by boosting your skincare effectiveness TWICE as much. It restores the skin’s natural recovery capabilities, and amplifies the effect of any and every type of skincare applied !

Learn more here (:

Been hearing alot of raves about Swee Choon Dimsum and i've finally tried it after bugging the boyfriend for like urm, 2 weeks ? I wouldn't say that their dimsum is mad awesome, but i don't deny that some of their items are really yummy. Items that i recommend will be their chicken glutinous rice, xlb, red bean paste pancake (my personal fave #1), and liu sha bao (my personal fave #2). The mee sua kueh is pretty nice too but it gets a little jelak after awhile so it's best if you share with your friends.

Decisions, decisions

2012-02-03T01:01:00.001+08:00

Help needed. If given a choice, would you choose to expand a family business or would you choose to work in a bank that pays slightly higher ? It's like a battle between wanting more pay and personal time versus learning actual survival/business skills.

Let me know what you think in my formspring ya !

Marni X H&M

2012-02-02T17:38:00.002+08:00

Up online and in stores on March 8, 2012.

Lotsa circular prints ^.^ Mark the date down people !!

The CNY : WIW

2012-02-01T13:52:00.000+08:00

I swear i really wanna blog about my CNY but to be honest, i don't really take alot of photos during the CNY because once we gather, we talk or gamble non-stop.

So here's a brief WIW for the CNY

day 1 outfit - mggm cheongsam dress, a.wang inspired clutch, rubi suede wedge,

ax bangle watch, swaroski earring, juicy bracelet

day 2 outfit - lb emma frock, rubi suede wedge, ax bangle watch, swaroski earring, juicy bracelet

Top 10 Favourite Makan Places, Part 2

2012-02-01T00:58:00.009+08:00

And so, another of my favourite makan place is, 新源記. I heard their 魚頭爐 (Fish head steamboat) is pretty good but i haven't tried it yet so i can't review. I've tried their 炸魚片米粉 (fried fish beehoon) and i've decided never to order anything else since then. I love how chewy their thick beehoon is and their soup is neither too milky nor bland. Boyfriend tried their red snapper fish beehoon and said it was pretty good too !

Another must have is their Fried Marmite Chicken. Tried once with my ex colleague and i couldn't forget how crispy and fragrant the marmite taste was. Try it if you ever go to 新源記 aye.

新源記
31 Tan Quee Lan Street

Goodbye Wordpress, Hello Blogger.

2012-01-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

Its been quite some time since i last left Blogger for Wordpress. And today, i'm returning back to Blogger from Wordpress for the same reason i left Blogger then. Fickle minded much huh. Anyway, i'm hoping that by changing back to a more friendly platform, i'll be blogging more (:

Changed my kiddish and old layout but i still feel it's not really what i wanted. Shall edit the layout again tomorrow. Till then, xoxo.

CNY Prep

2012-01-20T07:48:00.000+08:00

All ready for CNY but Mom's complaining that my shoes are too high ):
Anyone knows where can I get red suede wedges or heels that are less high ?
Do let me know aye, very very very very urgent !!

My weekend in short

2012-01-16T05:21:00.001+08:00

Damn those eyebags ): And it's only 1 eye somemore ! Ugh.

Brunch, Fri the 13th

2012-01-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

What I ate today

Brunch : milk 16 tbsp 97kcal. water 1 cup 0kcal.
kiwi 1 medium 42kcal. oats 15g 65kcal. granola bar 1 bar 95kcal.

Xth Social Night

2012-01-09T06:39:00.001+08:00

2012 !

2012-01-09T06:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TWNETY-TWELVE <3

I know this entry came real late, but still, Happy New Year to all of you out there ! Unlike many who usually head out to party, I tend to keep myself at home in my own room, and away from the crowd. This year, the boyfriend and i had a mini cookout and we watched One Piece till 4am in the morning, heh.

Till then, XOXO

A quick update

2011-12-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates (yes I know I havent been updating again, like what's new right). Anyways, diet plan have been chucked aside for the festive season and hopefully I can get back on track asap for the new year. Who wants to look fat on New Year right ? Already had trouble fitting into my usual dresses for my friend's wedding. Don't wanna screw up my New Year haha.

So as the title suggests, this shall be a quick update. Not gonna type too much. Gotta sum up my December with some photos. Will talk about November when I have the time aye :/

Amos & Xueling's wedding, 15th Dec

Christmas gift exchange at GFS, 23rd Dec

H&M Family and Friends, 23rd Dec

BBQ for Xingxian's 23rd birthday, 24th Dec

XX's 23rd. b4L the original, 24th Dec

B's grams place for Melvin, Yihao & Weiwei's birthday, 25th Dec

Summing up my month of December, it was a month of ups and downs, with hiccups along the way, but I'm glad that after all the dramas, things still pretty much turned out the way I wanted it to. So yea, be back before the New Year I hope (:

En route to fortyfive

2011-12-13T06:50:00.001+08:00

And so, because I've been gaining way too much weight since I started working full time, I'm now trying to get my weight back in check with yet another routine that I've came up with. And this new diet plan I've came up with is called the One Meal Per Day Plan.

As the name suggests, I eat only ONE meal a day. I initially wanted to have my meal really small (like baby portion, haha) and low caloric but kinda difficult to do so at the office cause I have zero control over how my meal is cooked, I therefore allowed myself to have whatever I want/can for lunch. And that meal, be it boiled or grilled or steamed or fried, shall be my only meal for the whole day.

So what happens in the evening when I reach home ? I get hungry and looking at my parents have their dinner/ snack later in the night does not help my growling tummy at all. Like every other human, I crave for food. Especially crisps, cookies, bread. All those sugary savories and carbs.

So from today onwards, everytime I get hungry and crave to snack, I will log into Wordpress, post a curb-the-snacking-pangs tip, and stick to it.

And here's tip #1, when you get hungry and wanted to start eating or snacking,

grab a polish bottle and paint away !!

Painting layers and layers over your nails takes times and hopefully by the time you're done with your nails, the urge to eat is gone. If it isn't, fret not. The bad polish stench on your nails will probably make you not wanna eat. if you still crave for food, then tell yourself that sticking your freshly painted fingers into that bag of crisps is gonna spoil your nails and effort.

Have a go at painting your nails when you feel like eating ! It should help (:

My boyfriend loves me

2011-12-12T05:17:00.000+08:00

about an hour later .. .. ..

jiang jiang ~ bbt !! with ♥ , from my ♥

Top 10 Favourite Makan Places, Part 1

2011-10-21T07:49:00.000+08:00

Decided to delete the previous "Top 10 Favourite Makan Places" entry cause #1, it ain't detailed enough and #2, i discovered some really awesome food/ restaurants lately so i'm gonna be posting my top 10 favourite makan places in 10 different posts, regardless of any ranking.

One of the best ramen house that i discovered lately is Ramen Santouka. I used to think that Men-ya Kaiko at Ion B4 is fairly good enough, with fragrant broth and thick ramen but boy, Ramen Santouka is even better !! Suaku it may sound but i never knew such a place existed till 3 days ago, when Glad and I met up with Yucui to celebrate her 25th birthday. And i'm so thankful i found this place cause their pork cheek ramen is totally to die for.

We tried both the spicy miso soup and clear soup and both are rich in flavour without being too thick or creamy. The pork slices are hugeass and despite it being so chunked up in size, it's really soft and tender. Total bill adds up to $84 after GST. Not exactly very pocket friendly, but definitely worth the price. Awesome soup, awesome pork slices, awesome ambience, awersome staff. What one asks for in a ramen house, Santouka has it all. All of you should go try it, and do let me know if you like it or not k ! And if you know of any other better ramen house, let me know ! You could either leave a comment below, or drop it in my formspring ! I'll be waiting (:

Ramen Santouka
6 Eu Tong Sen Street, #02-76 The Central

My latest favourite buy ♥

2011-09-20T08:48:00.001+08:00

So what this thing does is that ; It's supposed to (according to the website) remove 6x more makeup than manual cleansing, leaves your skin feeling and looking smoother, cleanses so well that products absorb better, helps reduce oily areas, dry skin patches and blemishes, helps reduce the appearance of visible pores, and also reduces the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles.

It comes in many pretty vibrant colours (apart from the ones you see above) and after much consideration, I finally chose turqoise cause the colour is sooooooo pretty and I couldn't resist it. I haven't used my Clarisonic Mia long enough to give you guys a proper review but I've tested it for 2 days and that's like 4 washes, twice a day - once in the morning and once at night and I have to say I'm totally sold to this product. It's like once you've tried/used it, you will never ever want to wash your face with your fingers again. So far, I haven't really seen any improvements for fine lines and blemishes, but I swear I thought my pores are a wee bit less visible upon my first usage. I don't know if it's the placebo effect but it really looked like it shrank a little. But anyway, it did what it promised in smoothing the skin cause my face felt really smooth after using it. It's like it's even smoother than my bum !

And so, my Mia came with the sensitive brush head and I personally feel that it's just nice for my skin. Oh, I have combination skin by the way - dry at the cheeks and oily at my t-zone areas and I find that the sensitive brush head isn't too abrasive nor harsh for my skin. Unlike many other electronic cleansing brushes, the bristles don’t "dig" into your skin but rather they kinda rotates which feels pretty good I must say (Think : Massage).

What i really love about this product is that it is cordless and it comes with a magnetized charger, which makes it very idiot proof to use. Like you just "clip" the charger onto your Mia, plug the charger into your powerpoint, and you're good to go. It is also shower-friendly and travel-friendly (but it's not quite pocket friendly I must say) If you can see, it's not too big nor small for my hands to hold and the grip is just nice and its completely waterproof so you can use it in your showers and you don't need to worry about getting yourselves electrocuted or anything of that sort.

It only runs for a minute and then it automatically shuts off. So if you feel that you need an extra minute to wash your face, by all means power it on again and let the brush work its way through your face. I've been using this twice a day and 2 minutes per wash and I don't (or rather, haven't) find it too drying for my face so I might be sticking to this routine for probably another month or so before I cut down to 1 minute. I've been planning to cut the morning's routine to 1 minute though, but we shall see how things goes after a week.

If you have any questions regarding the Clarisonic Mia, or you have any other random questions for me, feel free to drop me a comment in my Formspring, and I promise I'll get back to you as soon as possible. I guess that's all I have to say for the product as of now (phew, that's a lengthy one) and I'll do another proper review on my Mia in probably another 3-4 weeks' time ♥

Coming soon - Suggestions please !

2011-09-07T07:43:00.000+08:00

Coming soon - Self Manufactured Waterfall Maxi (:

Haven't finalise on the design and colours. So suggest away !!

Which one should i get ? Comment away !

2011-09-05T08:23:00.000+08:00

Formspring

2011-08-30T09:29:00.000+08:00

Dear reader who asked the question above, dont worry im not ignoring you haha.
Im still consolidating my top 10 favourite makan place. So do stay tuned aye !

Beauty Haul #1

2011-08-25T08:49:00.000+08:00

Okie, as requested on my Formspring, here's a list of the skincare products that i have lying in on my dressing table. I don't use all of them at one go of course (I only have 1 face haha) so i normally just pick one randomly depending on my mood.

CLEANSING.

#1 Vichy Purifying Cleansing Gel #2 Clinique Mild Liquid Facial Soap
#3 AquaLabel White Clear Foam #4 Kose Sekkisei Washing Cream

I'm also using Dr Chan's green and blue liquid cleansers as well but i didn't take any photos of them cause it's just 2 white and fat plain bottles and i think you can only purchase it over at Dr Chan's. I remember someone telling me it's kinda similar to this particular cleanser that Watsons/Guardian sells but i really cant remember what brand it is. So if anyone of you know what brand Dr Chan's cleanser is, please let me know k !

TONING.
#1 Clinique Clarifying Lotion #2 Clinique Clarifying Moisture Lotion #3 AquaLabel White Up Lotion
(The Clarifying Moisture Lotion is without alcohol and is really good for times of outbreak)
#1 SK II Facial Treatment Essence #2 Formula 10.0.6 So Totally Clean Everyday Cleanser Sensitive Formula

Btw i'm totally sold to the Formula 10.0.6 Everyday Cleanser ! It's so awesome idk how can i describe it. It kinda smells a tad too weird imho but it smells better than SK II and its leave my skin really baby smooth after usage. And the best thing of all ? It kinda "removes" those little fabrics that tend to stay on our skin especially after washing our faces. Its tested and proven by Brenda and myself.

MOISTURISING/ESSENCE.

#1 Clinique Moisturising Lotion #2 Loreal Revital Lift #3 BioEssence Tanaka White Double Action Essence
#1 BioEssence Radiant Youth Essence #2 BioEssence Perfect Brilliance Serum #3 SK II Cellumination Essence

Anyway, i'm in the hunt for a really good and hopefully one that works almost instantly, pimple gel haha. I heard raves for Formula 10.0.6 Pimple Gel and Mario Badescu Drying Lotion but i've yet to try them so maybe if you guys happen to know anything bout these 2 products or have any other products to recommend, don't hesitate to leave me a comment aye ? I don't bite (:

C72 – A self manufactured collection !

2011-08-14T08:07:00.000+08:00

C71 - A self manufactured collection !

2011-08-01T02:40:00.000+08:00

Anyway, a mini update for those who aren't following me on FB, FS, or Twitter, i've found a full time job ! All thanks to Wenya. And the best thing ? She's gonna be joining me come the end of August. Oh btw, my company is still on the look for more staffs, so if you're keen in working in Ubi, buzz me so i can fill you guys in on the various available positions (:

83/11 Sierra Wing Social Night

2011-07-18T04:35:00.000+08:00

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Shampoo makes me fat ?

2011-07-16T09:12:00.000+08:00

The truth about 'chemical calories' in beauty products

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2013283/Is-shampoo-making-FAT-The-truth-chemical-calories-beauty-products.html

WOAH NAIS.

Hang on

2011-07-14T08:16:00.000+08:00

just a few days more.

Angsty much

2011-07-13T08:54:00.000+08:00

I'm not trying to be a bitch, but srsly, the last thing i ever needed is someone to command/ instruct/ demand me to blog. Look, i spend almost 11 hours of my day at work. And fyi, weekends INCLUSIVE. And i get ONE day off once every 7-12 days.

wake up. report for work. end work. home. sleep.
wake up. report for work. end work. home. sleep.

and the cycle goes on and on

Or you want an entry like the above ? Life is really mundane and not worthy of blogging now. Day offs are spent nua-ing at home, catching shows on Funshion, that's all. If you guys had followed my formspring or blog hard enough, you would know i'm tied up with work cause i've mentioned that many times before. And it shouldn't be hard to follow since i don't update that often. Think, i don't even have time for MissFayne, let alone blog right ? Perhaps you guys can tell me what you want me to blog about and i will do up an entry with regards to your request. Cause frankly speaking, i really don't know what to blog about.

If you're keen on how i'm doing with my diets, then i had to disappoint you cause i've stopped dieting like since damn long ago. I'm fat like a ball. Ball face, ball stomach, ball ass. HAHA. And yes, that's me. At 58kg, just a few days ago. You can laugh if you want. If youre thinking that i'm pushing it out on purpose, fuck you srsly. Who in their right state of mind would lie bout being fat ? I'm just damn awesome at tucking in the stomach.

Anyway, since i'm blogging now, i might as well use this chance to enquire bout some stuffs (: I'm actually planning of joining a gym membership. But because i work almost daily, my best bet is that i will only head down to the gym prolly only once a week, after 9pm or before 10am. Any gym recommendations ? Feel free to pop by my formspring and tell me what you think k ! Whether or not i should join a gym, whether or not you think i am fat, or whatever. Just ask away ! I'll be more than happy to get your answer your questions ♥

I’m back and fat.

2011-07-01T08:20:00.000+08:00

Came across this on tumblr and i thought i might post it up.

Tip to lose weight

Repeat this exercise everytime youre offered something to eat

First turn your head to the left. Then turn it to the right.

Happy buys

2011-06-22T15:46:00.000+08:00

not so pretty (as claimed by kel) iphone case for yours truly and pretty tshirt for the boy ♥

I'm sorry i haven't been blogging proper lately but work's been taking a major toll on me so photos first, words later ! (:

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MissFayne Next Launch : 31 May, 6:00PM

2011-06-01T01:48:00.000+08:00

Exams are finally fucking over ! Like yay to freedom ! BUT ! Nay to job hunting and full time working. Anyone got job lobang, please let me know okay ? Full time position, centrally located preferred, but i'm open to any locations also la. Anyway, here's a mini post exam launch (:

And my favourite pieces from this collection ? EVERYTHING ! I totally love everything in this collection that i kept a piece of each design in every colour, haha.

[caption id="attachment_5143" align="aligncenter" width="720" caption="Chiffon Blouse & Mustard Pants"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_5144" align="aligncenter" width="720" caption="Chiffon Blouse (seen above) & Polka Dot High Waist Shorts"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_5145" align="aligncenter" width="720" caption="Laced Mini, i love this sooooo much that i started wearing it like super long ago haha."][/caption]

Half way point

2011-05-14T03:45:00.000+08:00

last three papers before i say goodbye to my student life. i'll be back soon ! (:

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What i wore today

2011-04-26T06:20:00.000+08:00

Sonya Tank in Lime, LoveBonito
Tier Pleated Chiffon Mini, Unreleased at MissFayne

2011-04-26T05:49:00.000+08:00

Smile Baby Smile

2011-04-24T16:32:00.000+08:00

I totally love the way i smiled in this photo. Like wtf ikr. But srsly, i can't remember when was the last time i smiled like that. And, I am super super SUPER not motivated to study lately. Like look at what am i doing now ?! Blogging at 12midnight when i could have used this time to read another chapter ?! This is really bad cause exams are like less than 10 days away !! I could really do with some love/ encouragements from all of you out there now. Yes. RIGHT NOW. So people, show me some love please - either in the comment box below, or in my formspring, twitter, or fb. Just help me. Help me through this very last lap.

xoxo, fayne
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Happy 4th

2011-04-23T05:28:00.000+08:00

for more photos, do check out my facebook (:

Social Night 2011

2011-04-19T02:52:00.000+08:00

and ending the post with an epic pic of us

xoxo, fayne
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Challenge Day One : Presentation of myself

2011-04-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

Starting with the obvious, my name is Huishan (or Fayne) and i am turning twenty (old) three this November.
I'm a weight loss psychotic. Yes i'm insanely obsessed with my weight and i do stupid things to keep it down and low.
I'm in my final year with University of London, majoring in Econs and Management.
Apart from schooling, i also run an online blogshop MissFayne, must support me hokay !!

Okay, I don't know what else to say. Leave a comment below / on my FS if you wanna know more.

30 day challenge

2011-04-14T03:09:00.000+08:00

Was reading Joanne's blog and she mentioned this 30 day challenge thingamajig. Looks kinda fun and motivating for me to blog more often, so here it goes !

Day 01 – Presentation of myself
Day 02 – My first love
Day 03 – My parents
Day 04 – What kind of food do I cook ?
Day 05 – What is love ?
Day 06 – If this was my last day…
Day 07 – Friends
Day 08 – Favorite things
Day 09 – My beliefs or philosophy
Day10 – Favorite blogs
Day 11 – My siblings
Day 12 – 10 things you didn’t know about me
Day 13 – A regular day in my home
Day 14 – Bad habits and burdens
Day 15 – My dreams
Day 16 – First kiss
Day 17 – Childhood memory
Day 18 – An embarrassing moment
Day 19 – I regret this
Day 20 – My role models
Day 21 – My bad sides
Day 22 – Things that upset me
Day 23 – My home
Day 24 – Things that makes me cry
Day 25 – Things I’m good at
Day 26 – My fears
Day 27 – My favorite place
Day 28 – Things I miss
Day 29 – This is what I want to do when I grow up
Day 30 – 10 deadly sins

Evidence of my weight gain

2011-04-12T07:07:00.000+08:00

last week (:

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WIWT (:

2011-04-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

"Motivation" for the girl on my FS (:

2011-04-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

ok, but i cheated. i sucked in, lol. anyway, the shorts are mad pretty, but its going at SGD42 ):

We ate a cow, like literally.

2011-03-27T06:56:00.000+08:00

Need i say more ?

2011-03-24T05:01:00.000+08:00

[caption id="attachment_5020" align="aligncenter" width="535" caption="embellished toga drape dress. available in jade, mustard, sweet pink and midnight blue"][/caption]

Blueyes @ Timbre

2011-03-21T08:10:00.000+08:00

[caption id="attachment_5010" align="aligncenter" width="600" caption="timbre with the poly fav girls (:"][/caption]

New Layout

2011-03-17T03:06:00.000+08:00

[caption id="attachment_5007" align="aligncenter" width="600" caption="new layout ! hohoho (:"][/caption]

wintergirl

2011-02-08T07:36:00.000+08:00

i am not dead, i am not alive. i am a wintergirl, caught in between two worlds. i am a ghost with a beating heart.

i have so much going through me right now. so many thoughts and feelings. i over-think and im anxious. it's nauseating at times. especially tonight. i've felt on the edge of throwing up from pure mental stress. why is life so complex ? but then again, maybe it's not. maybe i'm just over-thinking everything and overwhelming myself and making it more complex than it is. the more thoughtful a person is, the more complicated the world seems to them. while if you're someone dull and unthoughtful, life would probably seem a lot more simple. i think i’m just going to focus on my goals of weight loss and progressing musically to avoid thinking about my life, my situations and the world i seem to dislike so immensely. if i focus on those two things, maybe everything else will just disappear and cease to matter. maybe they’ll cease to wear me down emotionally.

Get rid of belly rolls

2011-02-05T07:39:00.000+08:00

LIAR !! I DID EVERYTHING HE SUGGESTED BEFORE AND I STILL HAVE THE DAMN TUMTUM !

I almost died

2011-02-05T06:59:00.000+08:00

this time i’m more determined than ever. i’m gonna get back on track, i’m gonna do this now, i’m gonna show them all what i’m capable of.

2011-02-03T08:12:00.001+08:00

when ordinary is never good enough

2011-02-03T08:12:00.000+08:00

i really wanna rant, but i don't quite know where to start. i feel like i need to write something significant to draw a parallel with the jumbled mess inside my head but no matter how many things i need to say i just can’t seem to find the words to truly explain the way i’m feeling right now.

one thing i understand about me is that i will never be able to understand myself. or rather, never be able to understand my fucked up relationship with food and body image. i don’t know when it all went so wrong. was it one significant thing ? was i born like it ? or is it just little things that built up without me even realising ?

to be perfectly honest, sometimes ignorance is bliss. i feel like the more i learn about my disorder, the further away from it i’m becoming, i don't want that to happen. it sounds stupid but i am nothing without it. it is etched into my soul and without it i’m just average, completely insignificant and i HATE the word F-A-T.

the whole time i had everyone telling me how much happier i’d be when i was at a normal weight, that they understand what i’m going through. to be frank, they don’t know shit. they dont know that when they tell me i look healthy, they are breaking my heart. they don’t realise that for a girl like me to be called normal is like calling a fat person a pig.

everyday i’m faced with a person that i don't recognise anymore. i was never big. i was always slightly skinnier than average. but most of the time i cant even look in the mirror without having a breakdown. i used to have all the confidence in the world and they took it away from me. how could they tell me that this was going to make me happy when it shattered every hope i’ve ever had. skinny is the only hope i have at being happy. when they took it away from me i fear that they took it away forever.

all my hard work for months are gone just because they were scared of something they didn't understand. my doctor told me if this goes on, i'll die. with every second that passes, i'm a second closer to death. that’s a fact of life. when i was happy with my body, i would stop and try to maintain it. i wasn't gonna let myself die. but right now, i', losing my grip over everything and i wish for death, although tbh i already feel pretty dead inside.

i’ve felt hurt and anger and utter hopelessness. i felt frustrated and heartbroken and depressed.

they think that just because i’m not skinny anymore, i’ll turn back into the person i was before this whole thing started ? that’s not gonna happen. i’m so resentful to them for what they’ve done to me that sometimes i can barely function. this is MY body. i should be able to do what i want with it. i was so close to my dream and they snatched it away from me and they just expect me to love them, and THANK them for saving my life.

This is so triggering

2011-02-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

so damn triggering that is scares me.

Meals For The Day

2011-02-02T14:04:00.000+08:00

Breakfast : Buttermilk Pancake & Scrambled Eggs topped with Bacon Bits

Betty Crocker’s Buttermilk Complete Pancake Mix (10 tablespoons): 380 Calories / Butter (1/2 tablespoon) : 13 Calories / Eggs (3 medium): 210 Calories / Master Pura Skimmed Milk (3 tablespoons): 6 Calories / Bacos Bacon Bits (30g) : 30 Calories

Serves : 2 / 320kcal per serving

Dinner : Mongkok Cafe Chicken Pasta in Tomato Sauce

I don't know the exact calories (for dinner) but given the mega portion of the pasta, it should be at least 5-600kcal, and also the fried seafood ham rolls. I know you would say things like i can just have half of it but no my parents made me finish up the whole plate. So better not count the calorie intake, else i wouldn't be able to sleep tonight heh. Diet shall start tomorrow !

No to food. Yes to thin.

2011-02-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

my whole life revolves around food. can i eat that ? should i eat that ? how many calories will i have to burn of after eating that ? how many tenths of a pound might i gain ? will i be able to stop myself after just ONE cookie ? for once, just once, id like to be able to eat normally, with no guilt attached and without hating myself after. but i know that will NEVER happen. which is why id rather not eat at all.

Overcoming the Weight Loss Plateau

2011-01-16T12:46:00.000+08:00

Extracted from TheBettyLife, one of the girls whom inspired me to exercise to lose weight.

So your working out every day, you are watching your calorie intake and eating the healthiest things you can find. You are doing everything you can to lose weight, but the scales just ain’t budging. Sound familiar? You have hit a weight loss plateau.

At the beginning of your weight loss journey the pounds will drop of the quickest, mainly because there is a lot of fat to go! Your lifestyle has changed from sedentary to active so your body responds to this dramatic change by burning off your excess fat stores. Likewise, if you cut out the junk food you are not making any more fat. Win win.

However, as time progresses, your body is getting comfortable with this new routine, and it is finding ways to become more efficient. It is getting accustomed to the daily calories in verses the calories out, and during workouts fewer calories are burnt each time. This is when we hit a plateau.

Hitting a plateau is not always a bad thing. Your body has lost a lot of weight and taking time to readjust to this can be beneficial. It can teach you the importance of maintenance, as this is probably the hardest part of losing weight and keeping the weight off. As long as your weight doesn’t fluctuate, staying at the same weight for a few months will not hinder your weight loss in the long run.

How to overcome the plateau ?

Mix things up! I have learnt this from experience. During October 2010 I challenged myself to see how many miles I could run and how running affected my fitness levels. In 3 weeks I had covered 78.4 miles, sweated buckets, but unfortunately no weight loss was achieved. This was me hitting a plateau. Every day on the treadmill, my body was becoming better at what I was putting it through. Yes my fitness levels improved and I could run for miles, but weight loss wise this was not beneficial.

At the time I could comfortably run for 30 minutes at 10 mph, but stick me on an exercise bike and I would struggle.

After the month was up I stepped away from the treadmill and I added in a variety of different workouts. Swimming, exercise bike, stepper, yoga… This to me was a challenge, as new muscle groups were being used – it awakens your body again as it does when you first begin to lose weight.

Are you eating too much? At the end of the day calories are calories. Of course, healthy calories are far more beneficial and less damaging to the body than those calories with added saturated fat, salt and sugars. However, to achieve weight loss a calorie deficit needs to be reached. To lose one pound you need to burn 3,500 calories. Impossible in a day, but over a week or so it is possible to burn 7,000 calories (and not eat them again!) to lose 2 pounds.

Eating too much food in general will cause minimum weight loss. Check your potion sizes, half your plate should be vegetables, 1/4 protein and 1/4 carbs. Opt for fruit and nuts as healthy snacks.

Are you eating enough? If you are not eating enough calories per day, you will have little energy to workout efficiently. If we stop eating, our bodies go into ‘starvation mode’ – which is where it stores as much fat as possible in order to survive. Eating a good healthy breakfast will kick-start your metabolism and ensure that you are burning calories throughout the entire day. Eating regularly also helps, try to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner with a few healthy snacks in between.

Keep a food diary. If there was a secret to weight loss. This would be it. When I decided to lose weight, the only thing that kept me on track and accountable for everything I did was a food diary. www.livestrong.com has a great web-based version with every food imaginable on there. I religiously recorded my food in take along with my calories burnt for the first five or six months to get an idea of my eating habits. It was a great motivator for me as if I ate that chocolate bar, I would need to tell livestrong. After a while you realise how many calories are in certain foods, the foods you cannot eat as often, and the foods to stay well clear of.

Resistance Training. I hate doing weights at the gym. So I simply avoided them. To me they were a struggle and I saw no purpose in them, as I didn’t want beefy arms or massive legs. However, this attitude was wrong. Weights don’t beef you up unless you do them every single day and you lift ridiculously heavy ones.

Using weights is the quickest way to change the shape of your body. Incorpating a weights routine into your workout is highly recommended for weight loss. It tones your muscles, makes you appear slimmer and firmer, and muscles burn more calories than fat alone. They are hard, you will sweat, but it is the best way to boost weight loss for noticable results.

I use weights at home with Davina DVD’s – Body Buff is my new favourite. I would also recommend her Super Body Workout as there is a section called Super Sculpt which really works. On top of that swimming is a form of gentle resistance training, as well as yoga and pilates. All of these will tone up your entire body.

Don’t be discouraged. Finally, if you have hit the plateau, you can view it as a good thing. You do not have that much weight left to lose. You are losing it slow and sensibly which will mean it will stay off. All exercise you are doing is improving your fitness levels and keeping you fit and healthy. Keep it up!

Oh anyway, i personally think MyFitnessPal is better than LiveStrong, so you guys can go play around with the various journals and decide for yourself (:

C69 : CNY #1

2011-01-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

WE HAVE LAUNCHED ! (like finally haha)
http://missfayne.livejournal.com/98038.html

Work work and more work

2011-01-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

working on sociology assignment, and also invoicing at missfayne at the same time. haha.

Fried Magee !

2011-01-05T21:16:00.001+08:00

Myojo Chicken Abalone Magee (1 pack): 368 Calories / Egg (1 medium): 70 Calories / Luncheon Meat (1/8 can) : 120 Calories / Butter (3/4 tablespoon): 20 Calories / Woh Hup Oyster Sauce (1/2 tablespoon): 8 Calories

Serves : 1/ 586kcal per serving

Meals For The Day

2011-01-02T14:04:00.001+08:00

Breakfast : Buttermilk Pancake & Scrambled Eggs topped with Bacon Bits

Fried Oreos !

2011-01-01T21:25:00.001+08:00

Per piece of non-fried oreo is 55kcal, and when stuffs are fried, the amount of calories kinda doubled to tripled so i'm guessing this very delicious-crunchy-sweet-yet-mad-sinful snack will be approximately 100-200kcal ? Time to head off for a short run ! It's always better to burn some calories than never burn at all LOL !!

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011 !!

2010-12-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

Time check : 2352. It's like 2011 in less than 10 minutes and for the past 30 minutes or so i had been looking through my blog, thinking bout everything that happened in 2010 and also the various failed-to-accomplish resolutions that i made in the previous year.

2010 had been a pretty bad year - academic wise, social wise, and even health wise failed me. I put on a horrendous amount of weight and ever since, my body's absorption rate went haywire (Think : Gaining 5kgs from 1 simple meal)

Putting negative thoughts aside (1) i made a very awesome friends - my phuture crew lol (2) i grew to like Sociology abit more than last year (3) i learnt how to be healthier and eat healthily (4) i lost apprx 6-8 kgs of unwanted pounds (5) business at MissFayne picked up somehow

I don't think i'll be listing much new year resolutions cause i hardly stick to them so i'll just let nature takes its course and pick things up as time goes ? Oh, but of course 2 die-hard resolutions will be to lose abit more weight and maintain it, not letting my appetite and weight go out of control ever again and to be a better person and maintain a good relationship with my loved ones so i won't lose any more friends in the years to come.

Say my name

2010-12-28T14:10:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry i had to delete yesterday's meal for the day. It's such a torture to see the amount of calories i had been taking. A part of me is happy that i am eating healthily again (which gained me some pounds by the way) and it somehow triggered my disappearing period but another part of me hate being a 116.6lbs

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Jingle all the way ~

2010-12-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

And so, 24th is Christmas eve and Xingxian's birthday and since it's a tradition for all of us to have dinner at Xingxian's place on the eve of Christmas, i'll just let the photos do the talking yep ?

Christmas and Christmas eve's calorie intake was ambiguous so i won't be doing the usual calorie listing. I would probably wanna kill myself if i were to recall how much i ate. In fact, i already wanna kill myself when i see those hotdogs in the above collage haha.

Oh anyway, it's been some time since i took my weight and yes, the past 12 days of "proper eating" got me to my new high of 116.6lbs. All those pounds i've painstakingly shook off in the past 70 days got back and i'm even heavier than before. But i'm not that depressed (i'll tell you why late) and i really wonder - for the past 10 days, i ate the amount of calories that would allow me to maintain my "then" weight, so why did i gain that much weight anyway ? I've got people telling me its probably cause i calculated the calorie intake with a weight that is higher than i actually am, well i don't know.

The reason why i'm not THAT sad bout gaining those extra pounds is because my 26 days late period is finally here. I read somewhere before that extreme diets could actually affect our menstrual cycle, causing delays in periods. So since the blood's flowing, means my body is pretty healthy now aye ?

Sunday (breakfast, 369kcal) CHINATOWN DIMSUM !! 1 piece fried banana prawn beehoon fritter, 1 piece har gao, 1 piece scallop seaweed siew mai, 1 cup pu'er tea (lunch, 41kcal) 1/2 Fayne's cabbage-chicken roll (afternoon snack, 57kcal) 100g Natural yogurt (dinner,165kcal) 2 Fayne's cabbage-chicken rolls (evening snack, 136kcal) 1 pack Meiji plain crackers, 1/4 cup Skimmed milk

Total calories intake for the day : 768kcal ♥

Rainbow cupcake recipe

2010-12-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

as requested by my reader on fs (:

Dana, The 8 Year Old Anorexic

2010-12-26T16:12:00.001+08:00

I know it's Boxing day and i shouldn't be talking bout all those diet/ weight loss/ emo stuffs but i just received an email from a really sweet reader and i thought of sharing it with the rest of you.

Such a surreal to watch through all 5 parts of this documentary. It is just so fucking sad. She's so young, and the kinda things she do to herself is insane ! The way she keeps her intake to nothing more than 175kcals, to resist treatment etc etc. It's just so fucking scary.

Anyway, will blog about my Christmas Eve soon !! So stay tuned !!

Pre-Christmas Eve

2010-12-23T23:25:00.004+08:00

Wednesday (breakfast, 139kcal) 100g Nestle yogurt, 2 tbspn Alive Light & Tasty wholegrain cereals, 1/2 bar Nature Valley granola bar in oats & honey flavour (lunch, 190kcal) 1/2 pack McDonalds medium fries (afternoon snack, 223kcal) 1 1/2 bar Nature Valley granola bar in oats & honey flavour, 10 mini tang yuans (dinner, 507kcal) 1/2 bowl steamed rice, 3 tbspn watercress soup, 2 pieces roasted pork, 1/4 fried pomfret, 1 roasted duck thigh, 1 piece fried tofu, 1 cup boiled broccoli

Total calories intake for the day : 1059kcal ♥

Thursday was the eve of Christmas eve and yours truly, being a true blue last minute person, did my cupcake-baking only today. And so, my thursday was spent at Eileen's doing rainbow & oreo cupcakes which turned out really really awesome !

need i say more ? mad awesome right ? got the urge to bake again
cause it turned out so fluffy and delicious !

and oh, i totally forgot to take photos of our completed oreo cupcakes
but its exactly the same as the one above except that there's no frosting
CAUSE OUR FROSTING FAILED LOL.

Thursday (breakfast, 0kcal) skipped (lunch, 497kcal) 1 regular Soupspoon tokyo chicken stew with 1 multigrain bun, 1 Provence brazilian cheese bun (afternoon snack, 563kcal) 1 oreo cupcake, 3/4 rainbow cupcake, 1 bowl potato carrot soup (dinner, 503kcal) 1 bowl steamed rice, 1 portion stir fry vege, 1 garlic prawn, 2 bbq crab claws

Total calories intake for the day : 1563kcal ♥

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Eat & play like nobody's business

2010-12-20T14:35:00.002+08:00

Seriously, the past 2 days had been nothing but food. In fact, i had been eating alot since the Sakae on Thursday haha.

Saturday (breakfast, 276kcal) Bak Chang (lunch, 184kcal) 1 bowl Fayne’s cabbage soup which i added alot more ingredients this time round, 1 tbspn Chicken rice only (afternoon snack 190kcal) 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar in oats & honey flavour (dinner, XXXkcal) 1 Fried fish fillet bun, 3 peanut butter cream buns (cardio -444kcal) 8.49km in 37:23 (midnight, XXXkcal) 1 slice of Benson's birthday cake, lotsa liquor and sodas WAHAHA !

Total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous ♥

It was a crazy night at Phuture on Sat. The crowd was horrendous (due to the 987 event at Velvet i think) Bumped in Praba and Aldis, and damn Praba couldn't recognise me until this morning ! But anyway, i'll just let the pictures do the talking yep.

And oh, i had SUPPER before i went to sleep la !! 1 packet of Papa Instant Kueh Chap with a large egg and a mega glass of iced water - the purrrfect comfort food to have after filling the tummy up with liquor haha.

As for today (Sunday) i'll waive the calorie-counting and let the photos do the talking aye ? Ate way too much and i seriously got no idea how much calories they gonna cost me. It's pretty hard to google calories for Korean dishes.

[caption id="attachment_4746" align="aligncenter" width="550" caption="for lunch, i had 1 dumpling, 1 har gao, 1/2 chee cheong fun and the whole plate of fritters"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_4747" align="aligncenter" width="550" caption="& for dinner, the whole plate of noodles, 1 dumpling, and all the sides, LOL."][/caption]

Total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous ♥

I felt like i ate more than 3000kcal just for today seriously. Did a 15min jog but it's definitely not enough luh. I'm crossing my fingers the scale won't go kaboom tomorrow morning. The amount of calories i'm taking in for the past FOUR DAYS, seriously exceeds the amount i would have taken in TWO WEEKS ! So i guess you guys will know what's gonna happen for the next few days aye ? I feel the need do something to my intake before my appetite and weight grows again you see.

Lalalala

2010-12-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

Friday (breakfast, 0kcal) skipped (lunch, approximately 758kcal) Crystal Jade DimSum (afternoon snack, 350kcal) 1 cup Yam paste without coconut milk (dinner, 0kcal) skipped (night snack 55kcal) 1/2 sachet Super 3 in 1 cereal mix (cardio -344kcal) 6.63km in 32:15

Total calories intake for the day : 1163 - 344 = 819kcal ♥
Morning : 48.0KG // Night: 48.5KG

Approximate calorie intake breakdown for what i had at Crystal Jade are as follows – 3/4 bowl Pork chives dumpling noodle soup 254kcal, 2 pieces Xiao long bao 140kcal, 1 piece Hargao 44kcal, 2 rolls Shrimp cheong fun 320kcal.

Decided to collage some thinspo pics (Tip #1) cause i couldn't stop thinking bout food and i need to keep myself occupied so i won't "feel" my hunger. My last "meal" was taken at around 4ish you see haha.

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

S.A.K.A.E

2010-12-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

Wednesday (breakfast, 280kcal) 2 Provence cream wassant (lunch, 206kcal) 1 pack Replacement meal flavoured Lemon chilli fish with rice (afternoon snack, 140kcal) 1 Provence cream wassant (dinner, 145kcal) 1/2 can Campbell borsch soup, 1 piece Sarawak pineapple (evening snack, 332kcal) 1 Provence cream wassant, 1 pack Meiji plain crackers, 10 pieces mini marshmallows (cardio -129kcal) 5.04km in 21:46

Total calories intake for the day : 1103 - 129 = 974kcal ♥
Morning : 48.5KG // Night: 49.5KG

Finally met up with Meiyan after sooooo long. It has been a norm for the both of us to have Sakae Sushi whenever we meet and people often just conform to norms (pardon these sociology terms, but ive been studying LOL !) we decided to have lunch-dinner at Wheelock's Sakae. And seriously, MY and i didn't quite enjoyed the food and we probably only ate 1/3 of what we use to eat. First, her sprite took forever to come. Second, everytime our food comes to us, it's cold, and the list goes on and on. But all those bitching and gossiping was awesome much haha.

Thursday (breakfast, 250kcal) 1 Provence cream wassant, 1 sachet Super 3 in 1 cereal mix (lunch + dinner, approximately 1516kcal) Sakae Sushi Buffet

Total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous ♥
Morning : 48.5KG // Night: 49.0KG

Approximate calorie intake breakdown for what i had at Sakae are as follows - 2 servings Kakiage 468kcal, 2 servings Potato Croquette 476kcal, 2 cups Kani Chawamushi 232kcal, 3 slices Salmon Sashimi 52kcal, 1 serving Kani Tempura 288kcal.

And till now (6 hours after dinner) i'm still so fucking bloated i feel like i'm gonna throw up. Not cause i feel fat (though i very much am) and i wanna get rid of the food but i'm really really really full. Anyhow, since i'm on the tummy-topic right now, i might as well share with you guys some stuffs bout belly fats (:

Visceral Fat is scientifically known as abdominal fat, organ fat or intra-abdominal fat. However most people will be more familiar with terms such as Beer Belly, Muffin Top, Love Handles, or Pot Belly.

Visceral fat are actually a major health risk. Such fat is located between internal organs and torso of the abdomen. Therefore, it is not the fat under your skin and is fat surrounding your vital organs. Excess visceral fat causes central obesity and indicates a higher risk of having cardiovascular disease. Central obesity is then associated with a large waist circumference and having an apple shaped body. Apple shaped, high visceral fat and large waist circumference increase one's risk of getting Type 2 Diabetes, Heart Disease and is also a marker that suggests you could have Metabolic Syndrome.

Place a measuring tape on your navel and wrap it around to measure your waist circumference. You are at risk of suffering from health problems if :

You're a man and have a waist circumference greater than 100 cm

You're a woman have a waist circumference greater than 90 cm

I know some are gonna say i'm prolly nowhere near 90cm but no, i'm like 80 already lol. And \according to Natalie Black, sit-ups don’t work to make our stomach flatter and we can’t spot reduce. The best way to reduce visceral fat is a through eating a balanced diet (and Natalie recommended a protein-dominant diet) and regular cardiovascular and resistance exercise.

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Eat-all-you-can day

2010-12-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

Tuesday (breakfast, 423kcal) Mcdees iced milo and hashbrown (lunch, 695kcal) 1 bowl Thai Express tomyam seafood glass noodle soup, 1 scoop The Daily Scoop macha azuki ice cream (afternoon snack, 290kcal) 1 stick Provence Bakery honey french toast (dinner, 63kcal) 1/2 can Campbell borsch soup

Total calories intake for the day : 1471kcal ♥
Morning : 48.5KG // Night: 48.5KG

And while i'm typing away, my stomach is growling like a monster. And i don't dare to eat/ snack away cause i'm afraid all of today's intake will reflect on the scale tomorrow. It's just ironic how i always feel hungry faster and feel wayyyyy hungrier when i eat 3 (or more) proper meals than when i am on diet or restrict my food intake. How nice zzz.

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Kueh diet ? Lol !

2010-12-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

Today is like a kueh day for me. Oh anyway, the title of this post is bullshit okay, there's no such thing called the Kueh Diet or whatnots. But come to think of it, kueh quite healthy one hor ? Despite the free servings of flour, but at least its steamed and not fried right ? HAHA !

And before i go on, I've got a confession to make - i induced my first after-binge purge ever and no i'm not blogging bout it cause i'm proud of it but i really wanna tell all of you out there who ever thought of doing so DON'T fucking do/ try it cause the after-feeling is mad awful. I may have felt better psychologically that all the crackers are out but psychically its too awful for me to handle. I couldn't understand how some girls could ever do it again and again but i would never advice or encourage anyone to do it. Trust me on this. So today's total calories intake may not be as "accurate" cause i read somewhere just now that purging does not totally remove what you ate so yep. I'll just pretend i never had eaten those crackers in my MFTD yep.

Monday (breakfast, 174kcal) 80z freshly squeezed tomato orange juice, 1 piece soon kueh (lunch, 349kcal) 1 bowl Fayne's cabbage soup, 1 green bean ang ku kueh, 1/2 perng kueh (dinner, 303kcal) 1 bowl Fayne's cabbage soup with Koka instant purple wheat noodles (evening snack, 190kcal) 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar oats & honey flavour (cardio -118kcal) 2.43km in 16:49

Total calories intake for the day : 1016 – 118 = 898kcal ♥
Morning : 49.0KG // Night: 49.5KG

4 more thinspiration tips today ♥

#9 Eat in front of the mirror If you can, have your meals in front of the mirror - naked. You'll see how much you need to eat then.

#10 Make a meal plan/ Keep a food diary List the calories you’ll allow yourself to and after you eat write down what you ate. If you're using apple products, download these 2 apps called MyFitnessPal and HPB Diet Tracker. MFP is good for keeping track of your daily calories intake and calories burnt but it lacks of some local food in their database so you could use HPB to search for the local foods that could not be found in MFP.

#11 Sleep early Lack of sleep stimulates your appetite. The more you sleep, the less you'll feel hungry cause you're totally asleep ! It is proven that most people who sleep at least 6 hours a day lose more weight and are less hungry.

#12 Spit it ! If you really really have the urge to taste something, you could chew it but do not swallow, spit it out ! Warning, this is an extremely bad habit though.

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

It's hard to lose weight

2010-12-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

If you had been religiously following me since i started dieting back in October, you would realise that there is consistent weight fall only when i was doing the 3 day tuna diet - i went from 51.5 to 49.5kg and thereafter, my weight had been going up and down, hit my new low, rised abit, stayed stagnant for awhile, and now it seems to be rising again no matter how little i eat.

Looking back, i didn't really consume very little calories during those tuna diet days. Calories intake stayed within the range of 534 - 1096kcal. In fact, i had been taking in lesser net calories in the recent weeks because i've incorporated tonnes of running along with my low-calorie diet so by right i should lose more weight right ?! But NOOOOOOO - no weight loss at all !

Was googling for more thinspirations and diet/weight-loss ideas and it struck me - why not blog about some of my personal weight-loss tips on top of my daily meals/intakes for the day ? But having failed in dieting, i won't say that these tips would work 100% and oh, not totally healthy too, haha !

So i'll start off with 5 8 (cause i'm feeling generous lol) tips today ♥

#1 Keep a thinspiration book/log Get a really nice journal or something and print/cut pictures of skinny models/girls, tips, quotes, or even workouts, and stick it in there. Whenever you feel like binge-ing, take out this book and flip through it.

I have been obsessed with skinny/stick-thin girls since i was in secondary school (i still am and i really really wanna be one of them) and since then i have been collecting photos from all over the place. Till date i've got almost 10 of them ! To me, they are like a witches' grimoire - my very own compilation of thinspiration to keep myself going. It helps alot !

#2 Take a polaroid/ mobile picture of yourself wearing nothing but your underwear and whenever you feel like or want to binge, look at it and see all those fats that you've been trying so hard to get rid of ? Now tell me if you still wanna go on with eating. Carry this photo with you wherever you go but of course, be careful not to lose it. I'll probably die of embarrassment or anything of that sort if someone ever sees me with my thunder thighs and flabby arms and tummy.

#3 When you want to eat something you shouldn’t, make a list of 20 reasons why you shouldn’t, and read it at least 20 times Haha i know this sounds really stupid but most of the time, when you're done with the reasonings, you've probably lost the urge and crave to eat. For myself, i do this everytime i feel like eating whether or not the food i'm craving for is a should or should not. Just a heads up that this is really really unhealthy and harmful for your body cause i used to (back in poly days) do this to myself even when i have not consumed anything for the day at all.

Alternatively, you could #4 Count to 100 really slowly and sometimes, the crave might pass. I remember reading somewhere (i don't know if it's real) that counting changes the mind's direction in thought. So i guess this is what we call distraction ?

#5 Pick one food for the day For example, an apple. Cut it into 4 quarters. Eat a quarter per meal. 1 for breakfast, 1 for lunch, 1 for dinner, and you’ve got 1 extra left for snack. This may sound ridiculous, insane, unhealthy and impossible to some but when one is desperate to lose weight, you'll do anything and i really mean anything. I've only done this like twice only though haha - love food too much to give it up just like that.

#6 Pinch all your fats when you want to eat and having seen how disgusting it is, you'll think that if you eat you’ll just add more to it and obviously we all don’t want that. Or, worst come to worst, #7 Wear a rubber band around your wrist and snap it when you feel like eating. You’ll train yourself not to even think about eating. This works equally well for those who are trying to quit smoking.

Last but not least (i recall how often i implement this tip because i can't seem to go along with tip #5) #8 Eat breakfast and lunch only or just breakfast only. Never, NEVER eat dinner because if you do, you end up not giving your body enough time to burn off the calories. Or if you're afraid you'll get hungry towards the end of the day, you can have three meals but SMALL meals and you must finish up the last bit of eating at least four hours before you go to sleep. This way your metabolism will burn some of it up before you get into bed.

Okay, that's a huge chunk of word vomit. I realise that as i grow older, all these determination that used to be soooo strong seem to fade away. But i'm glad that i'm sharing these with you guys cause while i type away, i feel that i really wanna look like how i used to look and i actually get to see in comparison how lazy and less determined i am right now. So i better go grab my instax and snap a polaroid of my semi naked body after i publish this post heh.

Ok, nuff' said. It's time for MFTD and i'll continue with more tips tomorrow yep ?

Sunday (breakfast, 215kcal) 1 piece soon kueh, 1/4 plate fried carrot cake (lunch, 0kcal) skipped (noon snack, 98kcal) 1 piece soon kueh (dinner 349kcal) 1 bowl sliced fish soup without evaporated milk (cardio -442kcal) 8.40km in 35:10

Total calories intake for the day : 662 - 442 = 220kcal ♥
Morning : 49.0KG // Night: 49.5KG

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

C68 !

2010-12-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

I'm thrilled to announce the launch of the MissFayne's latest manufactured label Two-Tier Toga Top ! Comes in staple black and 3 other sweet pastel colours (Rum Pink / Mint Green / Creme) this top is perfect for both work and play ! Anyway, the month of December is the season to be jolly ! Apart from Christmas, it's MissFayne's birthday too ! We're turning THREE this 20th ! So, a special promotion to thank all you for your support thus far !

Ate like a fucking pig !

2010-12-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

Monday (breakfast, 85kcal) 1 veg pau (lunch, 134kcal) 1 pack korean kimchi magee, 1 large egg, 4 fresh scallops (noon snack, XXXkcal) PIZZA HUT ! 1 full slice xmas edition cheesy7 pizza, 1 slice xmas edition cheesy7 pizza crust and meat only lol, 1 glass soda (dinner 0kcal) skipped

Total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous ♥
Morning : 49.5KG // Night: 49.5KG

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Vegan, or not ?

2010-12-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

Looking at these thinspirations make me really wanna go all out to get down to 45-47kg

Initial plan was to go all vege and fruits (i was really determined to you know !) but my mom sneakily threw in some salmon into my broccoli-cauliflower soup so yeah, i ended up not doing vegan today lol. Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow la hor ? And because the "chain" was disrupted, i decided to snack on my favourite oat & honey granola cause i was still very very very hungry after finishing my soup. In fact, my tumtum is still growling away while im typing this entry la. Any idea why am i always feeling hungry ? LOL.

Monday (breakfast, 85kcal) 1 apple (lunch, 134kcal) 1 cup boiled frozen peas (noon snack, 35kcal) 1 tomato (dinner 200kcal) 1 cup boiled broccoli, 1 cup boiled cauliflower, 3 slices salmon, 1 yong tau hu tofu minus the fish paste (evening snack, 240kcal) 1 slice honeydew, 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar oats & honey flavour

Total calories intake for the day : 694kcal ♥
Morning : 48.5KG // Night: 49.0KG

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Itchy mouth la !

2010-12-09T23:38:00.002+08:00

Needless to say, total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous !!
Morning : 50.0KG // Night: 49.5KG

I seriously got no idea how many calories my dinner was. The calories i googled for Chicken Katsu seem a little too little - 296kcal for fried chicken cutlet like sala la. Anyone can enlighten me ? LOL !

Chants to self - i need to control my appetite i need to control my appetite i need to control my appetite. I really really wanna go down to 47 by the end of this year, so don't wanna start my 2011 being ah bui bui ): All these dieting is making my period and memory to go haywire, i need these memory back asap so i can do well for my exams. Please please please, let me return to 47 as soon as possible !!

Anyway, i really like the skinny-elephant and knee tattoo !! Should i get myself one ? LOL ! But i'm kinda afraid of the various implications that it may cause me when i'm looking for a job in future !!

I feel really really fat now

2010-12-08T23:57:00.001+08:00

Monday (breakfast, 279kcal) 3/4 cup Master Pura HiLo milk, 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar oats & honey flavour (lunch, 291kcal) 1/3 can Campbells cream of chicken, 1 Kaya bun (dinner XXXkcal) random dishes at a wedding dinner - jellyfish, sharksfin, cereal prawn, roasted chicken, veg with mushrooms & abalone, lotus leaf rice, yam paste

Actually, i didn't eat alot during the wedding. No idea how i gained that 1.5kg in a few hours. Guess its just my mega absorption rate, haha !

Total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous ♥
Morning : 48.5KG // Night: 50.0KG

Tuesday (breakfast, 243kcal) 1 1/4 cup Master Pura HiLo milk, 1/2 pack Nature Valley granola bar oats & honey flavour (lunch, 295kcal) 1 Subway Turkey Breast salad with honey mustard and pepper, 1/2 pack Nature Valley granola bar oats & honey flavour (noon snack 118kcal) 1 mini cup Frolick (dinner 281kcal) 1 slice Gardenia super soft & fine wholemeal bread, 25g Kraft philadelphia 'light' cream cheese, apprx 100g grilled chicken breast (evening snack apprx 300kcal) cabbage and mushroom stew, 3 fried hotate, 3 fried cheese tofu (cardio -638kcal) 12.8km in 46:27

Ran like a mad cow cause the weight actually stayed with me for more than 24 hours. But i lost nothing after the run LOL.

Total calories intake for the day : 1237 - 638 = 599kcal ♥
Morning : 50.0KG // Night: 50.0KG

Wednesday (breakfast, 139kcal) 1 cup SIM level 4 pushcart macaroni and cheese with 1/2 egg white (lunch, 306kcal) 1 Koi hazelnut milktea with 25% sugar and less pearls (dinner 266kcal) 2 slices Gardenia super soft & fine wholemeal bread, 1 tablespoon (15g) Kraft philadelphia 'light' cream cheese, 3 pieces of boiled crabsticks chopped in 1 teaspoon Mayo lite.

Total calories intake for the day : 711kcal ♥
Morning : 49.5KG // Night: 48.5.0KG

Oh did i mention that i went to have my hair done with @mmintyy today ? Bid goodbye to unruly hair and say hello to neat bob and bangs ♥♥

1 tablespoon of rice, LOL !

2010-12-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

Sunday (breakfast, 247kcal) 100g Nestle Natural yogurt, 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar peanut butter flavour (lunch, 26kcal) 1 tbspn Chicken rice only (dinner 588kcal) 1 packet Papa instant kueh chap with 1 egg, 1/3 Osyter omelette (night snacks 218kcal) 1/2 pack Fairprice sour cream chips (cardio -645kcal) 13km in 43mins

Total calories intake for the day : 1079 - 645 = 434kcal ♥
Morning : 48.5KG // Night: 48.5KG

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Saturday is B day !

2010-12-04T23:43:00.001+08:00

Because i found Astons near B's place, we decided to head down instead of our usual Cathay. We're thrilled to see no queue and many empty seats. We thought its prolly cause its still new and therefore not much crowd but we were soooooo wrong.

First, they didn't have any chicken left for the day at FOUR THIRTY IN THE AFTERNOON but since we were not a big fan of chicken, we went ahead with our orders. I initially wanted Grilled fish with herbs with baked potato and pasta salad but the waitress told me they ran out of pasta salad (and potato salad as well) so i ordered Grilled Fish with herbs with baked potato and fries and guess what arrived in my plate ? Grilled fish, fries and corn ! Not only did they messed up my order, they messed up B's NewYork strip and next table's drinks too ! The uncle ordered 7-up and they served Tonic ! Oh, and not to mention the extremely long wait for our food. My final verdict ?

3/5 fries

Saturday (breakfast, 249kcal) 1/2 cup Master Pura HiLo milk, 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar in oats & honey flavour (lunch, 83kcal) soy bean milk without syrup (dinner approximately 615kcal) Astons' grilled fish with herb with baked potato and fries (afternoon snack 72kcal) 1/2 Apricot & honey energy bar (cardio -218kcal) 4.88km in 46:13, slow much ?

Total calories intake for the day : 1019 - 218 = 801kcal ♥

Morning : 49KG // Night: 48.5KG

And for those who are interested, the approximate calorie intake breakdown for Astons should be as follow; just a rouge gauge so don't scream at me if it's wrong okay - 100g grilled dory 120kcal, baked potato with margarine 280kcal, fries 285kcal. Oh, i didn't finish the baked potato so i logged 3/4 a baked potato (210kcal) and taking McDee's fries as a gauge, logged 3/4 a medium McDee's fries (285kcal) lol.

To the girl who asked why did i stop posting my weight on my formspring : I accidentally deleted your question together with my answer >.< Anyway, i stopped posting my weight cause it has been hoveirng 48.5 - 49.5 despite keeping my daily calorie intake below 800kcal on most days. And oh it was 52 on Thursday night and 48 on Friday morning though. So maybe its not very good idea to follow my plan LOL.

Anyway, it's been some time since i last posted some thinspiration photos, so here's some !! SFW !

WTS + MFTD

2010-12-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

SELLING FOR A FRIEND !!

Love Bonito, Night Sky Jewel Frock. OOS on site, on backorder now. Made of soft crepe cotton, comes with side zip for easy wearing. Measures: 13-15" PTP (elastic band), 28" down (measured from tip of m-shape) Free delivery to your doorstep at east, northeast and town area only at my friend's own time preference. Leave a comment at my formspring if you're interested !!

Tuesday (breakfast, 177kcal) 1.5 cup Master Pura Slim milk (lunch 475kcal) 1 bowl Ngee Ann Poly Foodcourt ee mian soup (dinner 845kcal) 1 Mcdees mcSpicy burger, 1/2 Mcdees medium fries, 1/2 Mcdees small coke (cardio -66kcal) 10 mins slow jog LOL

Total calories intake for the day : 1497 - 66 = 1431kcal ♥

Wednesday (breakfast, 118kcal) 1 cup Master Pura Slim milk (lunch 180kcal) 1 pack Nature Valley granola bar in cinnamon flavour (dinner XXX kcal) Geylang Serai steamboat wahahaha !! (cardio -502kcal) 10.0km in 1:03:34

Total calories intake for the day : Ambiguous ♥

Mad aching calves

2010-11-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

As the title says, my calves ache so much that i had difficulty climbing the school's overhead bridge this morning ! LOL. Today is by far the worst day i ever had while dieting. Hunger pangs, giddy spells, jelly legs, you name it, i had it. I even blew up at my friends *slaps self* But i'm pretty sure it's not cause i under-consume or over-exercised cause (1) i didn't do any running today (2) 682kcal is more than any other days' intake.

So final verdict ? I have a new found nemesis - otia aka Organisation Theory : an Interdisciplinary Approach, lol. Spent my usual 3hrs of the morning in school, followed by a long 7 hrs in my room, trying to work on my otia essay. And it sucks cause i couldn't get a line out at all till like 7ish and i'm "done" when i still have 1.5pages more to go.

Anyway here's the long awaited Meal For The Day

Monday (breakfast, 239kcal) 1 cup Master Pura Slim milk, 1 cup SIM level 4 pushcart macaroni and cheese with 1/4 egg white and 1/2 crabstick (lunch 125kcal) 1 cup Marigold non-fat strawberry yoghurt (noon snack 100kcal) 1/2 Subway Turkey Breast salad with honey mustard and pepper (dinner 100kcal) remaining 1/2 Subway Turkey Breast salad with honey mustard and pepper (supper 118kcal) 1 cup Master Pura Hi-Lo milk

Total calories intake for the day : 682kcal ♥

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Milk diet failed again LOL

2010-11-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

Sunday (breakfast, 212kcal) 1/2 cup Master Pura Slim milk, 1 Sunshine soft white bread, 1 tbspn Skippy No Cholesterol Creamy peanut butter (lunch 60kcal) 1/2 dragonfruit (dinner 340kcal) 1/2 cup steamed rice, 1 5" waterboiled broccoli , 90g waterboiled chicken thigh, 1/3 Campbell Creamy Chicken soup to act as sauce (cardio morning -152kcal) 3.01km in 18:11 (night snack 123kcal) 1 cup Marigold non fat peach & mango yoghurt (cardio night -156kcal) 3.03km in 15:59.

1/2 cup steamed rice : 106 Calories / 1 stalk of 5" water-boiled broccoli : 49 Calories / 90g water-boiled chicken thigh : 107 Calories / 1/4 can Campbells cream of chicken : 78 Calories

Total calories intake for the day : 735 - 151 - 156 = 428kcal ♥

Mom said it looked like someone puked over his/her rice dinner, haha !! Anyway, almost everything in this dish is waterboiled or steamed with zero condiments so it's mega healthy ! But i was kinda afraid it would be a tad too dry and tasteless, so i used campbell's soup as a sauce over the whole dish.

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Run baby run

2010-11-28T01:28:00.002+08:00

I seriously think i've been eating so much that i've sorta lost the motivation to curb those hunger pangs and stick to my planned diet. Let's just take yesterday for instance - i was supposed to do a full milk diet, ie. milk for breakfast, milk for lunch, milk for noon snack (if any), milk for dinner, milk for supper (if any) BUT i dropped the idea after having 1 cup of milk for breakfast. And my lame excuse ? I feel the need to chew on something. Thank God i woke up feeling really full and guilty from the dinner the night before and decided to go for a run before i consume anything for the day.

And so, i did a 6.01km run in about 37:09, which is approximately 6'10"/km. And according to my Nike+ GPS app, the run had burnt 304kcal ! Oh and prior to my run, i dug out my old and almost expiring (haha!) Bio-Essence Inch Loss Body Cream and slapped a thick layer on my bulging tummy.

I also personally felt that to produce better results, the heat has to be retained "within" so i wrapped my tummy up with kitchen plastic wrap and ran with the cream and wrap. Just some sidenotes - as you run, you tend to perspire and the burning sensation that the cream initates when be enhanced when your sweat gets into contact with the cream so don't apply too much else you would prolly feel that your body is on fire. And also, remove any naval piercing for easy wrapping (cause my stud kept tearing the wrap) and, the kitchen wrap will tend to slip up/down wards once you perspire so it's good to find something to secure it. I used my regular headband as a waistband, like below haha !

And now it's time for Meals For The Day

Friday (breakfast, 97kcal) 1 cup Master Pura Slim milk (lunch 125kcal) 1 cup Marigold non fat strawberry yoghurt (dinner 311kcal) 1/2 cup Ayam Brand tuna chunks in water, 1 tbspn Fairprice mayo lite, 1 tbspn water-boiled frozen peas, 50g Maicar spaghetti (cardio -304kcal) 6.01km in 37:09.

Total calories intake for the day : 533 - 304 = 229kcal ♥ This has got to be the lowest i ever had "eaten" in a day (apart from those days when i would just starve myself and not eat for the whole day) Even my tuna diet has more calories that this luh.

Saturday (breakfast, 97kcal) 350ml Master Pura Slim milk (lunch 0kcal) skipped (dinner 788kcal) 1 plate Ikea roasted peppercorn salmon in gravlaxsas sauce with potatoes and longbeans, 7 balls Ikea meatballs, 1 Ikea fried chicken wing (cardio -356kcal) 7.05km in 37:15.

Total calories intake for the day : 921 - 356 = 565kcal ♥

Timecheck, it's 15 past 1am now and i've been typing for the past 1 hour haha. Shall go slap on a mask and have some sleep cause i read somewhere that having 7 hours of sleep everyday actually help to lose those extra calories ! So i'll see you guy again at 9ish10 tomorrow ! (:

xoxo, your weight-loss psychotic
alexaudreyfayne

Weight Plateau

2010-11-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

This is so so so annoying ! Been really careful with my calories for the past 2 weeks or so, and did tonnes of running BUT, absolutely no weight loss at all ! And the worst thing ? My body didn’t look any different - flabby arms, elephant thighs, and boing boing tumtum ):

I admit i've secretly indulged in some really sinful food/ drinks etc but i made sure i burn those calories off with workout and such. SO WHY LIKE THAT !?! I read off some fitness blog that such situations are kinda called a weight plateau. It means that the body was becoming so accustomed to running long distances and it is now finding new ways to cope with the running more efficiently. Hence, less energy was being used and therefore the amount of calories burnt each time is decreasing. Diminishing marginal returns much ?

And so, i'm going for another round of diet tomorrow - Milk Diet ! I'll be doing it for only 1 day, and prolly 2 days if my body can take it. Let's see how luh. Will keep you guys updated soon !!

Thursday (breakfast) Nutri Soy 1/2 carton fresh soy milk (lunch) Subway turkey breast salad with honey mustard and pepper as dressing, Nutri Soy 1/2 carton fresh soy milk (dinner) 1 cup natural yoghurt with apprx 40g fruity mini marshmallows (afternoon snack) apprx 75g fruity mini marshmallows.

A Café La

2010-11-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

It’s been a mad week – flea market on Sat, 830am lessons on Sun, school from Mon-Sat, work on Weds ect etc, and i can already forsee a few crazy weeks ahead cause its now the non stop assignments/ tests period so i’ll stop making collages of what i’ve been eating for the time being. Will still keep the blog updated with my daily food diary though (:

Sunday (breakfast) 1 stick strawberry pocky, mamee noodle snack (lunch) 5 tbpsn natural yoghurt with 1 cup marigold non fat strawberry yoghurt (dinner) 4 pcs amoy hargow, 1 serving korean rice cake in spicy sauce.

Monday (breakfast) SIM level 4 pushcart macaroni and cheese (lunch) crabmeat mayo gunkan sushi, 5 tbspn natural yoghurt mixed with 1 cup marigold non fat strawberry yoghurt (dinner) boiled broccoli, bean vermicelli aka dong fen.

Tuesday (breakfast) Uncle Tobys strawberry flavoured yoghurt topps muesli bar (lunch) tomyam magee in ban mian style, gong cha honey milk tea (dinner) ichiban black pepper dory wazen, orange dew drink, 2 slices salmon sashimi.

Wednesday (breakfast) Mcgriddles with egg, hashbrown, small iced milo (lunch) Mos 5 pcs butterfly prawns, small iced tea (dinner) Little India magee goreng with egg, random steamboat soup and ingredients.

Weight wise, its been ranging between 50-50.5kg for the past week and i am definitely not very pleased bout it. I started dieting when i was 51.5 and after 3 days of tuna diet, i managed to push the weight down to 49.5kg, losing 2 kgs. From then on, my weight had been stuck no matter how little i eat (I even exercised more than usual la !) I’m not a greedy kid though, i just wanna weigh between 45-47kg haha. Perhaps i should start another round of tuna diet (but that’s gonna make me and my pee smell like tuna LOL !) Shall try out the milk diet Bao introduced and lets just cross our fingers that i have the determination to finish up the 3 day course without any cheating.

Anyway, work today with the girls was pretty tiring but fun. If you had walked past Chevron House today, you would have spotted 6 girls clad in bright orange, giving out coffee samples for tasting. Yea that’s us haha - Jiamin, Suk, Ade, Charlene, Viviene, and yours truly. I wouldn’t say the coffee tasted great but if i were to choose one of the 4 flavours – caramel macchiato/vanilla latte/tea & cafe/cafe latte, i would say cafe latte cause it’s the least sweet flavour. Have been a major fan of Starbucks caramel frapp so my vote should go to caramel maachiato but nah-uh, it’s too full and sweet for my liking. A Café La coffee are sold exclusively at 7-11 so if you want a cheaper alternative to Starbucks or the more atas coffee, you can go try it out. $2 for a bottle, $3.50 for 2 bottles. Ps, i am NOT paid for this mention at all so don’t come screaming at me if you don’t like the coffee. I didn’t like it either haha.

Flea Escape 3 !

2010-11-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

Saturday was nothing but lotsa fun and sweat at Flea Escape 3. Yes, i had a stall there and this time round, i shared the booth with Jiamin and Yanling ! Booked another stall each for Ade and Wenzi too. It's a pity Suk couldnt make it cause she's got 2 classes on Saturdays (can't afford to skip so many lessons haha) else i swear it's gonna be sooooooo fun !!

For more photos, please check out my facebook LOL.

And oh, for Saturday, all i had was Koi oolong milk tea (large) for lunch, some cookie sticks, and Chicken cutlet rice for dinner. The place was sooooooo hot that we all didn't have much appetite for food.

Nom nom nom

2010-11-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

Nom nom nom

2010-11-17T12:34:00.000+08:00

Nom nom nom

2010-11-14T22:24:00.005+08:00

Big TwoTwo, III

2010-11-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

Anyways, way shopping at Ion when i saw this really gorgeous dress from River Island.
Really really love the huge-ass rosage.

Nom nom nom

2010-11-09T22:20:00.001+08:00

Nom nom nom

2010-11-08T22:20:00.001+08:00

Big TwoTwo, II

2010-11-07T10:18:00.001+08:00

Dress : MissFayne
Footwear : Random shop in Toa Payoh
Clutch : Forever 21
Accessories : Chanel / T&C / AX

Nom nom nom

2010-11-05T07:20:00.000+08:00

Big TwoTwo, I

2010-11-04T07:40:00.000+08:00

Before i go on and on with what i did my favourite girls from TP, let me just fill in those who are concern with my weight and diet program. Meals for the day would be yogurt and muesli for breakfast, followed by seafood avocado fettucini for lunch, hazelnut white coffee for tea, and yogurt again for night snack.

Anyway, i've been having requests to post outfits for the day so do check out the bottom of each post for OFTD ♥

Top : MissFayne / Cotton On
Bottom : Cotton On
Accessories : Chanel / T&C / AX / LV

Nom nom nom

2010-11-03T06:10:00.000+08:00

It's been 4 days since my last day of diet. Weight is now going up and down between 49.5kg - 50.5kg, which is pretty decent i guess, given the fact that i had been having some awfully sinful and heavy meals since the 3 day diet (especially Sunday night's birthday dinner and today's birthday lunch ! lol !) And i'm still gonna have another round of birthday lunch with Leen & Wenzi tomorrow !

3 Day Diet aka Tuna Diet – Day 3

2010-10-31T06:44:00.000+08:00

3 Day Diet aka Tuna Diet – Day 2

2010-10-30T05:18:00.000+08:00

3 Day Diet aka Tuna Diet - Day 1

2010-10-29T05:28:00.000+08:00